This is the first in a new series on BizzieMommy.com. I thought it would be interesting to hear from other transitional entrepreneurs and how they balance, work, family and a business at the same time. If you would like to share your story please email us.
I want to first thank Stephanie for allowing me to be apart of this series that she has going on. I am a transitional Mompreneur. I am working on building my Life Coaching Practice as I continue to work a 9-5. It can be hard and tiresome at times but what do you do? If you want something bad enough you make a way for it to happen, right?
Well my confession is that there are times when I want to give up on transitioning to a mompreneur and simply stick to my 9-5. I do everything at my job. I write my blogs, I write my articles, I coach my clients, I mean if it needs to be done I do it at my job. I also do my work for my job at my job too. Where do I find the time you may ask? I create time. I have been blessed to have job that gives me some flexibility and I definitely use it. I am so nervous that this is all going to catch up to me and then poof I’ll be out of a job. The reason why I do so much at my job is because when I get home I want to spend that time sharing and loving on my family, not to mention, the laundry, cooking and other household duties. It is so hard for me as mom to have to walk away from my children every morning and not be accessible for them. So let me tell you what happened.
One morning I was getting ready for work as I normally do. As I got ready to leave I gave my hubby a kiss and gave my little man a big hug, my older boy has already left for school by this time. Well this time was a little different. I don’t know if it was because my little man was sick, but all I saw were his big brown eyes and those tiny hands reaching out to me as if to say mommy don’t leave me today. I couldn’t help but to hold him and cry. I put him down and as I closed the door behind me, I cried some more. I walked to the bus stop and tried my best to hold back the tears. By the time I got to work I couldn’t hold it any longer, I sat in my co-workers office and cried my eyes out. I cried so much that by noon I had to go home. When I got home I just grabbed my baby and held him and cried so more. I told him how sorry I am for leaving him every morning and that I love him so much. Now I know that he may not have understood anything I said, but I just needed to tell him.
It hurt so much to walk out the door everyday and work while pursuing my entrepreneurs endeavor. It hurts because one of my reasons for wanting to become an entrepreneur is so that I can be there as my baby grows up. I never cried before about becoming an entrepreneur. I don’t know if I’m crying because I’m getting closer to my dreams and all those little steps I have been taking are actually paying off, or maybe I’m just emotional now that I am a mom. But this situation really had me thinking, I started to wonder if all of this was really worth it? Is trying to become a mom entrepreneur really worth the pain and agony I feel every day I leave the house. Should I just forget it all and not worry about all that I have done and just concentrate on working. Maybe that would be easier, but the other day a friend of mine emailed me and thanked me for creating my blog, I Complete Me, and told me that it’s so nice to know that she is not alone. I couldn’t do anything but cry again. This is exactly why I’m doing this and to give it up would be to give up on women out there who read my blog. So my confession is that I still cry every time I leave my house, but those tears make me work harder because I’m not only doing it for me and to be there for my children, but I’m doing it for other woman out there too.
Felicia Pratt Ellis is a working mom, step mom, wife, and entrepreneur who loves to help uplift woman. She is the owner of the blog I Complete Me where she shares her journey, and tips of maintaining herself in the midst of motherhood, marriage, and work. She enjoys blogging because it allowed her to have an outlet to everyday situation, but it also transformed into a useful tool that let all women know that they are not alone in their thoughts and trials as a mom and/or wife.